Starting to get frustrated....uhhhghhh

It seems as though I am not losing weight. I am staying between 207-204 and it will NOT go below. I am working my ass off at the gym. Running, doing the elliptical for 1-1 1/2 hrs, 7 days a week. I just don't understand. I don't eat bad and I dont' eat a lot. I eat what I call "normal" most of the time although sometimes I can't eat or it just comes back up. I think I'm doing it all right but maybe I'm not. Should I "never" throw up? B/c I do at least once a day, whether that is just sliming or throwing up a slight bit to the whole meal. I don't go back to the doctor until the 14th of April so I'm so freaking frustrated. I know that I'm a lot healthier now than I was 5 months ago, and look a lot better.... but damn I am going nuts b/c I'm not seeing the scale move... I'm human so yes I'm addicted to the scales.... Sorry I'm just ranting... advice, comments, HELP!!

It's so close, I can taste it....

That would be "onderland"..... I'm down another 2lbs this week and getting so close to being in the 100's which I haven't seen in soooo many years. As of today, I've lost 40lbs according to my scale.. which is what I will go by... It's so hard for me to believe that 5 months ago, I had NO desire to go to the gym!!! what so ever... and now I just want to pick up, leave work, and go work out... which I don't and can't... I did get my hours changed at work to M-Thurs, I get off at 4 and on Fridays I get off at noon. I think I'm going to try to start working out 2 times a day... My husband gets up around 5am so I'm going to try and head to the gym..... It's going to be a struggle but am going to try b/c who knows.... I might love it...

On to other stuff... I loved, yes...past tense... reality tv.. I was an avid follower of the bachelor/bachelorette. This past week we all saw what happened and I've soon taken on my own opinon that everything is staged. Melissa, the one he chose then later humiliated her on tv, works for the same company as myself in Dallas... so it hits home b/c although I do not know her personally, she is like family b/c she is company family. (one of her good friends is one of my good friends) Anyways.... it was complete bullshit on what he did to her and I just know it was a setup.. I know she knew what she was getting into when she went on the show, but to do that to someone on television is unbelievable.... He, in my opinon, is a total scum bag... and I hate it, but I will not watch the show ever again!!!! arggggg...

Okay... enoughs, enough.... Better go check my facebook account, myspace account, cnn, kenny chesney.com, or maybe I should work???? hahahhaha