I'm so stuck... and it's not in my chest!

I'm stuck again at 198ish and that damn scale will not move! Totally frustrating buy yet happy to be at that weight. Just looking for a little move... We leave for our 7 day cruise in 11 days and I so can't wait!!! okay.. just had to vent that the freaking scale is a joke and so not my friend right now... I'm just saying... ARGGGGGGGG

Pictures...

Jennifer and Me after our first 5k run!

Finishing the 5k

Unusual weather here in Texas... 7 inches of Snow!
Duke enjoying the snow for the first time ever!

My cousin Julianna and Me @ Christmas...

My wonderful husband and Me in November...

It's Me!..and I'm back!

I know... it's been way to long and I've neglected this blog. I've been so busy and just haven't taken the time to post. If you've been following my blog, you know that I've been struggling.. not a bad eater, I eat right, so it all just didn't make sense. I've had regular visits to my doctors office and let me just say.. I absolutely love my nurse!! She is fantastic but... she has been thinking this whole time that I've been to tight.. I made the mistake last June of wanting a fill. I was losing weight just fine but got greedy and wanted more. The weight loss stopped which is why she thought I was to tight..and from this point forward we just couldn't get it right.. Well, this last time when I was in the office, I'd been journaling my food intake..and I was eating a shit load of food... 6 eggs, 3 pieces of sliced beef, pulled pork sandwiches, etc.. but at the same time I would get violently sick on chicken... not fun at all and I wanted to slit my throat when I did. They sent me for an upper GI @ the hospital and found that my band was just fine but they I need a big fill! (why I wasn't losing weight) We believe the culprit of my PB'ing was eating chicken, which is dry, and I wasn't taking small enough bites and eating entirely tooooo fast!!! Lessen learned... but I still won't eat chicken b/c it scares the hell out of me.. (I know I'm rambling and probably misspelling words along with run on sentences, but I'm just trying to catch back up a little) So since my visit a week and half ago, I've lost 6 lbs!! Whoodhhooo I can't tell you how much motivation I have now! I'm sitting @ 197lbs and would like to lose another 8 lbs when I go back to the doctor in 6 weeks... totally possible! I'm still exercising like crazy..at least 5 days a week. I just ran my second 5k and it feels so good. I shouldn't say "ran" b/c it's more like a jog. I ran them in about 38 minutes. I'm debating if I should do another this weekend. We are taking a 7 day cruise leaving out of Galveston on May 2 with our best friends, Blake and Jennifer. We are going to Cozumel, Montego Bay, and the Cayman Islands. Don't think I won't be sporting the bikini. I may not be completely ready for it, but I don't care! What else??? I have about 6.4 cc's in a 10 cc band. When I eat, it's hard to grasp that I'm full... I had 4 boiled shrimp last night and felt that dreadful pain that we've all felt when you get to that full spot.. it's hard to accept that I'm done eating... I guess after stuffing my face for 30+ years, it would be hard to learn that! I will try to post some pictures since last October till now a little later... I'm just excited to be back! I knew it would all work out and I would not fail this thing... It's given me so much hope and it's one of the best things that I've ever done! As always, leave me a comment, tip, or advice. Lord knows I need them all!! Peace out!!!

Still frustrated but thankful.....

I haven't posted in forever b/c I've been in a complete funk. I won't try to post too much but will let you know I'm so frustrated with this weight loss thing but also thankful that I've lost 50lbs! My one year since the surgery was on October 17, and I'd hoped to achieve my goal by then. Wrong.... I still have another 40-50lbs to go. I feel as though I'm doing almost everything right, but I haven't lost anything in 5 months....just maintaining... I bounce between 196-200lbs. I exercise 5-6 days a week, which is a body pump two nights and running at least 2 miles every day. I'm not a perfect eater, but don't eat hamburgers, cookies, pizza, etc.... (maybe every once in a while) I just don't understand how I haven't lost any more weight. My NP at the doctors office thinks it b/c I occasionally eat a piece of bread or have a small bowl of mashed potatoes...once again, maybe once every 2 weeks. Sorry.... that doesn't make sense to me. I'm not a quitter and I won't give up, but I'm starting to get pissed and really frustrated. The five months I haven't lost anything could have been another 25lbs gone! So... bandsters... help... advice.... bitch... I don't care.... I just need to hear something.... I'm losing my mind over this and I shouldn't be. How do you not lose weight when you are exercising and eating right????

I just don't understand....

(All the girls in gulf shores a couple of weeks ago. I'm the second from the left. I can't believe I wore a bikini but I did....)

I know it's been forever since I posted... I don't have anything good to post! It seems that I am sitting on the same weight, give or take 5 lbs, and can't seem to make the scale budge... for about 3 or so months now! The scale will not drop below 198 and I am just tired of fighting it. I don't understand. I exercise 5-6 times a week... running or a body pump class... I'm not a horrible eater but not perfect either. I don't eat McDonald's and crap but occasionally will have a brownie or sweet tea. I honestly though I would be at or around my goal weight of 150ish by my band anniversary, which is October 17, but doesn't look like I'm going to make it. I think I have the right amount of saline in my band, but might could take a little out. I just don't know what to do. I have an appointment this coming Tuesday and I'm sure they won't be happy b/c the scales haven't moved... which thank goodness they haven't gone up! I need advice, tips, anything you have to say ladies!!! HELP... I just don't get it.....



(My husband and me on the beach in Gulf Shores, Alabama)

I just don't get it...

I'm so freaking frustrated. I haven't lost anything in some time now, and have actually gained about 3-5 lbs. What the hell is wrong? I don't eat wrong.... not saying I don't eat things I shouldn't b/c I do, but not all the time and I don't over eat. I exercise. I run at least 2 miles a day and lift weights...some of those days I switch out and do the elliptical. I'm almost positive I have enough fluid in my band b/c I had to have some taken out a while back b/c I was way tooooo tight and now they've put some back in to put me right under where I was. I just don't get it and am very down right now... don't get me wrong.. 45-50 lbs is great seeing I just had this thing done in October but I haven't seen anything happen in the last 2-3 weeks and I'm getting VERY frustrated. I still have another 40-50 lbs to go... someone give me some advice.. I need it! I don't go back to the doctor until the first of July.......... arggggrggg.... oh yeah, we close on our new house June 18th! Whoohoo I will post pictures of it later when I get on my home computer. I'm on my work laptop now and they aren't uploaded to to this computer. I'm so excited. We basically bought all new furniture from Haverty's and it will be delivered the same day we close! I wish the packing/moving genie would show up soon to my house!

It's been forever...

Where do I start??? Well... guess who finally made it to "onderland?????""""""" ME!!!! I'm sitting at 199.6 and so freaking happy. To make a long post short... I had way to much in my band and had to have some saline removed... .4cc to be exact.... I couldn't really eat for 2 months but believe it or not I didn't lose anything either. After the removal, I didn't have enough restriction so I went back last week and had .2cc put back in... I can feel more restriction so we will see how it goes. On to bigger and better things even though this blog is about my lap band journey.... I saw Kenny Chesney in Dallas on the 2nd of May and it was rained out half way during the show.. He rescheduled it for this past Sunday but I had the crud and didn't get to go... You know when I have tickets to go see him and I don't, that I have to be on my death bed... I still can't believe I didn't go.... But I did go to Shreveport and see him... on 6th row... I could feel his breath on my neck... not really but I was damn close to him... Once you have floor seats like I always do, you get spoiled and I don't want anything else... I know... a spoiled princess! My husband and I decided to put our house up for sale and low and behold the thing sold in 3 days... and I have been freaking out because I couldn't find a house that I loved... But I did today and we made an offer. Please say a prayer that it will all work out... Hopefully I will post again soon and it won't be one continous run on paragraph with a bunch of rambaling going on!!! Till then... Summertime is finally here, that old ball park man is back in gear out on 49, ...... lyrics from Kenny Chesney....My love!