It's Me!..and I'm back!

I know... it's been way to long and I've neglected this blog. I've been so busy and just haven't taken the time to post. If you've been following my blog, you know that I've been struggling.. not a bad eater, I eat right, so it all just didn't make sense. I've had regular visits to my doctors office and let me just say.. I absolutely love my nurse!! She is fantastic but... she has been thinking this whole time that I've been to tight.. I made the mistake last June of wanting a fill. I was losing weight just fine but got greedy and wanted more. The weight loss stopped which is why she thought I was to tight..and from this point forward we just couldn't get it right.. Well, this last time when I was in the office, I'd been journaling my food intake..and I was eating a shit load of food... 6 eggs, 3 pieces of sliced beef, pulled pork sandwiches, etc.. but at the same time I would get violently sick on chicken... not fun at all and I wanted to slit my throat when I did. They sent me for an upper GI @ the hospital and found that my band was just fine but they I need a big fill! (why I wasn't losing weight) We believe the culprit of my PB'ing was eating chicken, which is dry, and I wasn't taking small enough bites and eating entirely tooooo fast!!! Lessen learned... but I still won't eat chicken b/c it scares the hell out of me.. (I know I'm rambling and probably misspelling words along with run on sentences, but I'm just trying to catch back up a little) So since my visit a week and half ago, I've lost 6 lbs!! Whoodhhooo I can't tell you how much motivation I have now! I'm sitting @ 197lbs and would like to lose another 8 lbs when I go back to the doctor in 6 weeks... totally possible! I'm still exercising like crazy..at least 5 days a week. I just ran my second 5k and it feels so good. I shouldn't say "ran" b/c it's more like a jog. I ran them in about 38 minutes. I'm debating if I should do another this weekend. We are taking a 7 day cruise leaving out of Galveston on May 2 with our best friends, Blake and Jennifer. We are going to Cozumel, Montego Bay, and the Cayman Islands. Don't think I won't be sporting the bikini. I may not be completely ready for it, but I don't care! What else??? I have about 6.4 cc's in a 10 cc band. When I eat, it's hard to grasp that I'm full... I had 4 boiled shrimp last night and felt that dreadful pain that we've all felt when you get to that full spot.. it's hard to accept that I'm done eating... I guess after stuffing my face for 30+ years, it would be hard to learn that! I will try to post some pictures since last October till now a little later... I'm just excited to be back! I knew it would all work out and I would not fail this thing... It's given me so much hope and it's one of the best things that I've ever done! As always, leave me a comment, tip, or advice. Lord knows I need them all!! Peace out!!!